Peek into the private messages of a girl whose PTSD is slowly consuming her.
What begins as a pursuit of polyamory, marked by the innocence of youth, evolves into hedonism, absurdity, obscenity, and insanity. It’s an experience equal parts comedy and horror, seen through the eyes of an unreliable narrator that swears – she’s really just trying to get laid.
I am that narrator, and this is a true story. I created this website to document the progression of my undiagnosed PTSD and how it nearly killed me. I did this with the hope it will provide insight into what stays hidden in the minds of the sick and suicidal. Whether you are bored, curious, or someone who’s been left behind, I invite you to read my messages – as long as you proceed with an open mind.
WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING
~ Dungeon owner/event organizer
~ Kink.com contributor
~ Freelance editor
~ Owner of Resolute Counseling
About the Author
Elaina grew up in the Pennsylvania countryside where she spent most of her summer days walking in the creek that powered the grain mill down the road. In school she pursued excellence in mathematics and music performance which were the keys to her full academic scholarship to Georgia State University. This opportunity yanked Elaina from her small country home and threw her into life in the big city – downtown Atlanta. Rather than shy away, Elaina embraced these new experiences with reckless abandon.
Elaina graduated in 2015 with a bachelor’s degree in Actuarial Science, but her interests could not be contained to one industry. Elaina has excelled in an eclectic mix of projects including professional domination, gogo dancing, and her rave company, Synaptic LLC (2015-2020) in addition to her professional work doing predictive modeling as an Associate of the Society of Actuaries.
It was Elaina’s relentless drive which convinced business coach and serial entrepreneur “Scott” to become her mentor in 2019. Their work together took the form of weekly emails which, combined with her writing to therapists, friends, and family, became the backbone of Elaina’s recovery from PTSD.
At the conclusion of her writing, Elaina accomplished her dream of traveling cross-country in the United States, solo, for 10 months. Elaina continues to live boldly and unapologetically in Denver, CO.
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